elinica

Ace Attorney 3

Sun, 26 Apr 2009 02:24:13 GMT

I've been playing Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney: Trials and Tribulations. (heehee, quite a mouthful). I'm on case 3, and am finding the game absolutely hilarious! Case 2 was incredibly long: I still can't believe I've played this much of the game and am less than halfway through!

I was kinda worried after playing Phoenix Wright 2: Justice for all. That entry was good, but it felt kind of weak after the first Phoenix Wright. Except for the last case, which was epic and awesome...

Now, to stay away from all Phoenix Wright related media until I finish with Apollo Justice (aka the 4th game.) unfortunately, I already know the spoilers about Godot, and Apollo and Trucy. Ah well.

Persona 3, shipping, hypocrisy , and robot lesbians.

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 03:48:42 GMT

So, I've been playing Persona 3: FES lately. Actually, I've been playing Persona 3 & 4 nonstop since about...February? I rented 4 on a whim, finished it (93 hours on one game: yikes!), and then decided to try out 3 (70 hours so far). After I finish Persona 3, I'm going to go back and start a new game of 4. And I'm probably going to spend my money this Christmas on a PSP (something I thought I'd never consider) for the persona 1 remake.

Both games are so damn good. I can't remember the last time a game made me this HAPPY to play it...maybe We <3 Katamari?

Anyway, let me ramble on more towards the subject of this post...when I was looking around for fanart for Persona 3, I noticed that Akihiko/Mitsuru is a popular pairing. For me this is like, "WTF? When do they ever interact enough to warrant a romance?" (truth be told, I'm in October, so I dunno if there's more interaction later.) Pairings that have little basis beyond "oh they were in the same panel, let's pair them up" usually annoy me, because I need some believable character interaction or expressed interest for me to get behind it.

Why yes, I usually go through fanart/fanfiction feeling smug about my superior taste in pairings/annoyed by popular fanon pairings ~~Die Yosuke/Chie~~...why do you ask?

...Or so I thought. Today, in Persona 3, I saw a scene where Fuuka and Aegis were talking to each other. This one conversation is about ALL the interaction they've had all game, yet my immediate thought was "HEY! They're both really cute! I want to pair them up!" I really thought I was immune to that, but I guess not. D:

So, if you're wondering who I am....

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 03:33:05 GMT

I'm a LJ user who reads more than she writes, theses days. If I wrote a comment on your community or LJ, hi! I'm here, I just don't post much. That's why this journal has no recent entries. Thanks. :)

So.

Sat, 22 Nov 2008 20:18:33 GMT

Last night my dog, Sierra, got hit by a vehicle, and died. She was only about 4 years old. We don't know exactly what happened; this morning someone stopped by and told us that there was a dog on the highway that they thought was ours. (I really wish I could thank that person SO MUCH for taking their time out to tell us. It was so much better this way)

She didn't have any kind of...damage..on her, so we're assuming she got hit instantly and died. That was a relief, at least.

Dad and I picked her up, and took her home, and buried her. The whole time I was in some kind of a shock. It was like this was someone else's dog I was looking at. I've gone through a lot of grief and crying, but part of me still feels like that. It just seems unbelievable, that if I got outside she'll come running up to me, you know?

I feel really sad, and really angry. It's like, why did she have to die when she was so happy and so loved? It just seems so senseless. Based on my own spiritual experiences, I have faith that she's ok, and she's gone to a good place. I just...from this point of view, I have to wonder WHY, you know? A spoiled part of me feels incredulous; I want her here. I want her to be happy and loved here. It's like, where did she go? Why can't she come home? Why not, when she was right here yesterday?

The last time a pet died was about 4 years ago, so it's not fun to be rediscovering these feelings. All of my other dogs, though, they died of complications from their older ages. Sierra was healthy, and happy, and young. So it's an incredibly awful shock.

I don't blame myself, or the truck driver, or Sierra. I just...it happened, you know? It was a circumstance that created the opportunity for it to happen. Even understanding that, I still feel awful, you know? It's hard, as a human, to try and reconcile your thoughts and your feelings.

Rise! Rise From Your Grave!

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 03:45:30 GMT

So, um, hey. It's been over a year since I posted in this journal. I'm not dead, really!

But I did have some pretty traumatic experiences in the last year. Basically, I had a breakdown caused by an unknown mental illness. Hereditary, apparently. The experience of losing parts of brain functionality was pretty damn terrible. (For example, I can no longer drive. There are too many aspects for my brain to process at once; I find myself constantly forgetting what certain signs mean, or when to turn on lights/turn signals, or even what side of the road I'm supposed to be on when I make a turn. It's not like a momentary forgetting that happens occasionally..it's like a constant stream of forgetfulness. You know like how you get when you're nervous? For some reason I'm constantly in that state.)

I don't want to get into detail, but the experience caused me to be suicidal, and made me want to withdraw from life, society, family and friends. Dunno if I made the "right" decision, but it seemed like the best one at the time. Part of me is afraid that others will see me as a wuss, or weak, but another part of me knows I've struggled damn hard against my illness and have made a lot of progress. I guess that's the current drama in my persona right now: accepting that I have limitations that make me seem weak compared to other people.

Maybe I'll write a tl;dr post about it someday. Thankfully, the worst part seems to have passed, even though I'm left pretty disabled and dependent on others.

Anyway, I'm reviving this journal as a place to occasionally write about things, and to buy stuff from communitites like garagesalejapan. If you're on my friends list, I probably somewhat remember you. I know most of the FL for this journal was from the BJD fandom, which I'm not really a part of anymore, apart from looking at photosets gloryskies takes of our petite ai's.

Still into video games, somewhat into manga and anime. The latest things I've seen/read are Lucky Star, Full Metal Alchemist and La Corda D' Oro. I'm looking forward to the Togai no Chi manga being released next year, even if there isn't a lot of BL or ero content. (darn it) I've also been massively devouring any fanworks in the Yami no Matsuei fandom, even though I'm beginning to see YnM as a little um...campy.

Why is it that the older you get, the campier things become? I tried to watch Sailor Moon, but it was like, "when did this get so silly? I thought this was a Very Serious Show" It's not necessarily a bad thing, but it can be a jarring experience.

I'm also studying Japanese, an hour a day. So far I'm almost through the first chapter of the Genki textbook.

The games I'm currently playing are The World Ends With You and Princess Debut. I'm looking for

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 18:09:13 GMT

Today I started work on cleaning my closet. I haven't cleaned it in years, literally. It's basically been a storage space where clutter goes to die. Sis's closet was the same way for a long time, but then she betrayed me, and cleaned it up and organized it. She actually stores things in there she has practical uses for. There's even a mini-bookshelf in there.

Can you imagine?

Anyway, I want mine to be more like that, so I'm working on it a bit at a time. 20-30 minutes a day, I guess. Today while cleaning through, I discovered that there had been mice. EW EW EW EW EW EW. There was a lot of shredded paper and just...yuck. Some of the stuff hasn't been gotten into, and is salvagable, but a lot of it isn't.

Upon telling my best friend L this, she cheerfully replied, "at least you didn't find rat babies!"

My life's not very problematic right now....

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 00:54:43 GMT

There's one thing that will stop me from starting a video game, it's the dreaded "please enter a name for your character" screen.

I am SEVERELY picky about naming anything. Especially if it's a girl's name. It has to be a name I like, but it also has to totally fit the character in my mind. In games, the justification is that if me and my alter ego are going to be together for 40 or so hours, I owe it to her and I to give her a good name.

This is happening to me in the girl's version of Harvest Moon. I swear, I've put in about 25 different names, and restarted several times. None of them just seem right with her "look". "Daisy" would work really well, except that it's my grandmothers name. "Lily" is cute too, but that was the name of my heroine in Pokemon Emerald. "Lauren" is also good, but it's the name of my best friend.

I need a name that's cute, yet homey, and kind of fits in with the other characters' names. Otherwise I won't be able to play the game. :p I mean, one of the names on the savefile was George. Who would name their girl George ? T_T And how could they do it so easily? *jealous*

See my problem? My problem is I have issues. XD Lord only knows what'll happen if I need to name a real-life child. They'll probably be in college by the time I decide.

At least I've found http://www.20000-names.com/

Various musings

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 15:41:53 GMT

I love this new icon. It's a little bit emo, but I guess that's appropriate for a livejournal. ^_^

I hope everyone's been doing well, btw! :)

My dog Sierra, the one who's staying inside for 6 weeks, is absolutely adorable! My sister has a new age celtic CD, and whenever it plays, she just stares at the speakers, wagging her tail. I think dogs must like flutes and similar high pitched instruments...I remember one of our dogs would go crazy when sis would play the flute. (can't remember if that was Ananda, Coco, or Jodie...)

Hm, not much is going on in my life. Bought some manga and video games, sold some stuff. Going shopping today, but lately I've been spending a bit too much on impulse buys. *^_^*
Health-wise, I'm improving slowly but steadily. I can wake up in the morning and spend a long time on doing chores, without it totally killing me. It's such a great feeling to be able to bound from one thing to another, and get everything done! I've also been able to drive, and I wasn't able to before. Also, my OCD has become *much* more manageable and easier to resist.

It's amazing how much mental, physical, emotional, and spiritual health are so interrelated. I changed my diet because I wanted to change my emotional health, but that ended up improving everything. I have no idea why specialists don't interconnect with each other...if my gynecologist hadn't been an island from say, a dietitian, she would have known that the problem with my menstruation wasn't a cyst, but rather with not getting enough nutrients. Or if my GP had been more familiar with mental problems, they would have known that my low white blood cell count was due to depression and stress...and I wouldn't have had to take a million blood tests. :p

In the current context, if I improve one area of my life, it will open a door to improving the others. It's almost like unraveling a tangle of cords...you unravel one, and you can unravel another...then eventually the tangle is much smaller than when you started. But you can't just stick your hands in and pull them all apart at once. XD

Deep thoughts.

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 04:17:22 GMT

So tonight, I was roused out of sleep by a dog who wanted to go outside to use the bathroom. I was very irritated, to say the least.

Upon going outside, my irritation lasted approximately five seconds. I discovered that tonight is one of the most gorgeous, clear nights I've ever seen. The light of the crescent moon and stars, along with a temperature of about 78 degrees F, made everything seem as if it was blanketed in a comfortable darkness. Fireflies were out in swarms, and they hovered in the trees, blinking.

I wish I was articulate enough to better describe how something so beautiful made me feel. I wonder if words could ever completely convey that sense of contentment and spiritual fulfillment. It was so relaxing not to be caught up in the day to day stresses, just perceiving the world around me, and letting my thoughts wander at a leisurely pace.

When I looked up at the stars, I started thinking about my place in the universe, and I honestly felt as if it didn't matter how small I was in the grand scheme of things: I'm very happy to be a human, and very happy to be here. I don't know if I've ever felt like that before, at least on that level. Usually, thinking about how small I am frightens me. Or thinking that I'm a human makes me feel like I should hate my biological shortcomings. For that moment at least, I felt as if I was satisfied with who I am and what my purpose is.

I do wonder if the reason I was so relaxed and contemplative was because I had just woken up. A walk in the dark would probably be different if I had just ended a long day. This is kind of the goal of meditation, I suppose: to get yourself in that state, so you can perceive things from a more relaxed point of view.

Manga love. <3

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 14:46:10 GMT

Recently, I've gotten back into reading manga. I blame my friend L. Whenever she comes over to visit, she brings over a ton of manga. (she literally has a floor to ceiling bookcase filled with it) In exchange, she usually leaves with some of my video games. :) I find it a good system. I have a discerning eye for games, she has a discerning eye for manga.

I mostly buy my manga off of garagesalejapan. You can find some good deals there...used manga is about $5 a piece. Also, sis discovered that at http://www.rightstuf.com new manga is $6.50 a piece, and they have an enormous selection. We are in SO much trouble.

I like having my sister and best friend into manga along with me. We all three have different tastes, so we end up picking up great series the others wouldn't even notice. For example, L introduced me to Naruto and Full Metal Alchemist. Both are extremely fun reads. (I stay the hell out of the fandoms, btw. That's a good practice for any "popular" series) Sis introduces me to awesome shoujo (hey, it all looks alike to me, good thing I have her to sort through it.) I guess my niche is shows with fantasy elements ~~and dating-sim based harem shows~~. The plot where a normal high school girl gets transported to another world and/or gains magical powers, and suddenly gets surrounded by hot guys? It NEVER gets old.

On a whim, one of the manga series I decided to buy was Dot hack. Geez, there is so much flipping material for Dot Hack. Just reading the wikipedia entry gives me a headache. I picked up the manga because it was on sale along with some other manga I was buying. A couple years ago (wow, is that series already 5 years old?) I watched a bit of the anime, played the first game, and owned the anime soundtrack. I think my interest kind of tapered off after a while, and I never really finished it.

OMG I LOVE THIS MANGA.

It is SO. FLIPPING. CUTE. It reminds me why I was into Dot Hack into the first place. It's funny, unique, pretty, gender friendly, and makes you year for the positive aspects of MMORPG's.

I'm in trouble now, though, because it makes me want to see the anime and play the games again. 8D

Love Letter to a Video Game

Thu, 14 Jun 2007 14:06:46 GMT

Dear Romance of the Three Kingdoms X,

Where have you been all my life? I've played you for only a few hours, and I've discovered that you have the potential to be one of my Most Favorite Games ever. You have me enraptured.

A historically-based strategy/simulation game with strong RPG-like character development elements? With gorgeous art and music? Where you can play as a female character? Please tell me how Koei knew exactly what I wanted out of a game.

Hopefully yours,
Elinica

Possible amusing scenarios I may try to create :
1) A vicious rebel army of adorable loli-looking women officers who take over China.

2) A main character who just spends his/her time riding their horse around, talking to people, and throwing parties.

3) A character who attempts to literally piss off every single NPC in China.

I wish all microscopic life was symbiotic.

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 23:07:42 GMT

Today I took our dogs to the vet. It was a pain, because I had to wash them this morning and then drive them over to the vet's office. They are outside, country dogs, and thus not used to baths and trips to civilization. They are also about 60 lbs each.

All this is ok, it's just routine when you're taking them for their shots and exams. The worst part of the visit was when the vet told me to wait in a side room, so she could tell me the results of the fecal exams and blood work. That is not a good sign. Usually, they just tell you that the results were good, and let you pay. XD;

Sierra has heartworms. We caught it pretty early, which is good; but the treatment is expensive, and takes 6 weeks...that's bad. It's going to cost at least $275. Which may be a good price, I don't know? Usually, that vet's office is pretty cheap.

The treatment also involves keeping Si-Si (yes, we have all kinds of silly pet names for our dogs XD) inside for 6 weeks. I don't think she's going to be any more thrilled about it than us. She's a big ol' black lab, and gets in the way a lot. And of course, she's an outside dog, not an inside dog. She'll spend most of her time staring at the door trying to get me to take her out.

But the alternative is keeping her chained up outside in the shade for 6 weeks...I think I can bear having a big dog in the house instead of *that*. I want her to suffer as little as possible. (I'm getting a mental image of her saying that a daily dose of a bowl of milk, a few doggie treats, and constant petting would definitely minimize her suffering. )

I've been giving the dogs the heartworm medicine, but I guess I must have messed up or missed a dose. I don't have anyone to blame to myself for that, as I was keeping track of it in my head. I'm trying to be an adult about it, too, and not feel like this isn't fair.*

I mean, it was my fault, and I have to take responsibility for it. And besides, Sierra is suffering more than me, anyway. (if she could write to Livejournal, she'd probably attest to that: right now she has to stay in the vet's office for two days as they give her shots.)

I feel kind of guilty about it, though. If I had been paying more attention, she wouldn't have to go through this. And hell, *I* wouldn't have to go through my side of it, either, and I'd be $275 richer. :/

However, part of me is glad that we can cuddle at night. ^_^

*It's not fair! Why do I have to pay $275! I was going to spend that on video games! The heartworms should have to pay! is what the childish part of me says.

Good Morning! 8D

Mon, 11 Jun 2007 12:23:46 GMT

It really sucks to be a morning person while everyone around you is not.
Me in the mornings: "HI! 8D"
*person blearily trying to find their way through the house*: ....zzzzz

Yesterday, sis offhandedly said that she was considering selling all of her dolls. It affects me, because we both split the cost of one of them.

I was...ambivalent. I thought I would care more than I did. So I'm considering selling my last remaining BJD with sis. The doll is really cute, but I honestly don't think that BJD are built to last.

Maybe if they would last years and retained much of their original look, I would think differently. But as it is, they yellow in just a few years, and are really sensitive to chips and faceup fading. They require a lot of money to buy, and to maintain them (wigs, eyes, faceups, stringing, coating, clothes...).

Basically, for the price they are, and they way they're meant to be used, the value for keeping one for a long time is pretty low.

Yeaaargh.

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 02:47:06 GMT

So. Once upon a time, I had The Sims 2, and all of its expansions. I had fun with it for a year and a half, but then grew tired of the gameplay. Therfore, I sold all of my games, and forgot about it for a while. About a month ago, I decided that I had the urge to play the game again, and so I bought the game and all of the expansion packs.

Needless to say, there was a reason I had sold the games in the first place. Several reasons, in fact. So, I'm selling them back.

This is a list of reasons The Sims 2 gets too menial for me, in case I decide to get stupid and do this again:

*There is a short loading time when you try to do anything, not long enough to be awful, but certainly long enough to be annoying! This gets *considerably* worse with custom content installed...which is kind of the whole point of The Sims.

*The default look of the people is cartoony. The graphic style gets old after a while, and if you download CC to rectify this, the clothes and objects don't match.

*Sim needs go down way too fast. You spend more time sending your sims to the toilet rather than just enjoying watching them do stuff together. This is worse in the big families I like to play, because day in, day out, I end up managing the order they go to the bathroom.

*I don't have a ton of imagination. :p I can only watch the sims perform the same action so many times. When I see them interacting, I find it hard to imagine, they're just raising their relationship points, lol.

*The gameplay for the Open for Business and Pets expansions is NOT fun. There's a ton of micromanaging, and the rewards are boring. Businesses take too long to load, breaking up the gameplay, and Pets require a ton of work to train, yet don't live that long.

*On a related note, sims don't live long enough. Espeically their childhood phase, which barely lasts any time at all. And time goes really fast.

*The loading time for going downtown etc.. Arrrgh, if my computer was just a *little* faster it would be ok, but it's not. :p

*Seasons was the last straw. The sims can only go outside for like, 3 seconds before they start bitching about being too hot or too cold. I realize that in sim time, this is several hours, but in gameplay time it is NOT fun to send sims outside, have them build half a snowman, nearly freeze to death, go back outside, build the other half of a snowman, then freeze to death because you forgot about them while sending another sim to the toilet.

*Seasons also totally killed my hot tub love. WTF, they're in for 3 seconds and then suddenly they're overheated. Give me a break. :/

This post is dedicated to Myuu. :p

Wed, 30 May 2007 13:40:31 GMT

So, today I was a total hick.

While cooking my morning breakfast, I decided that what would really make it taste good would be some lambs quarter, which is an edible weed that grows like crazy in our garden.* However, I hadn't picked any lately, thus I decided to go outside and get some.

So, I turned the stove down to low, went outside in my bare feet and pajama pants, picked a couple from the garden, went back inside, washed them, and added them to the pan. Part of me is amused at how redneck this seems, especially when I write it down, but the other part of me says the hell with it and enjoys the gorgeous feeling of going out in the sunshine and picking your own food.

Growing and picking your own food is a different experience than buying it. Some people say it's spiritually more satisfying, but I wouldn't go that far! It's just different, and not better or worse.

*I think I'm going to expound upon this later in a post entitled Elinica: 1/Weeds: 4

Nerd post pt II

Tue, 29 May 2007 11:53:09 GMT

I swear to God, if I never see any of the following words, or strings of words again, it will be TOO SOON:

Driver (really, really tired of this one)
Windows has found new hardware!
Unknown PCI Device
Windows has finished installing. Your computer will now restart.

And the real bitch is that The Sims 2 *still* isn't installing. I think I *might* know what's wrong, though, now that I've ruled out the registry.

That's ok, though, because I have a nice clean computer now. <3

Nerd Post. :)

Mon, 28 May 2007 23:37:54 GMT

Ok, so today I decided to reformat my hard drive and set it back to the original Alienware factory configuration. I'd like to say that I wanted to do this because my system and hard drive were cluttered after two years of use, but there were really two other factors as well:

*Some magical voodoo in the registry was making it so I couldn't reinstall The Sims 2.

*I have a horrible tendancy to want to do upgrades and repairs to my computer, despite not knowing 100% what I'm doing. I CAN'T HELP MYSELF. It's kind of a hands on learning thing. I want to see what happens! I figure if I screw up my computer, I can take it to the repair shop.

It was actually pretty painless to reinstall everything back to the factory settings: Alienware sent a "Respawn Disc" which was basically a program to restore an image of my hard drive from 2 years ago, when it was sent to me. It only took 15-20 minutes, and didn't involve any esoteric google searches for insane hardware configurations.

For a lot of my files and programs, I don't mind that they're gone gone. Obviously, I thought to back up the important stuff ~~Like the porn~~ Also, there was a lot of clutter. Looking through old registry entries gave a lot of "Buh, where did that come from???" moments.

The worst part is having programs and drivers from 2 years ago. And being on a 28.8k modem to download all the new ones. >< I backed up some of the installations for spyware and virus removals. So I'm going to be on a downloading frenzy tonight and tomorrow. *sigh*

What's really annoying is that I have a 2-year-old version of Internet Explorer, and no Firefox. This means *scary music plays* no tabbed browsing!!! And no little google search bar. I have to manually open windows and go to google. Ewwwww.

Let's see, off the top of my head, things I need to download:
Free Download Manager
Avast! Antivirus
Microsoft NET framework
About five hundred million drivers from alienware.com
Mozilla Firefox (oh baby, I know we're going to be apart, but wait just a little longer. T_T)
AOL Instant Messenger
MS Security Updates.

Geez, it's going to be a while before I can download the (40MB...damnit!) patch for the sims to see if it will install this time. *sigh*

Before and After

Mon, 28 May 2007 03:24:19 GMT

Well, this is a long overdue post. Some people have been asking me for ages to post pictures of myself before and after the weight loss. I finally got around to having one taken today. According to my sister, I look dorky, but I prefer to think of it as "cute".

Before (300 lbs):

After (180 lbs):

Why is it that when you see a picture of yourself, you seem so much better-looking in your mind? XD At least, it's that way to me.

This post will appeal to the narrow range of people who are both computer nerds and astrology nerds.

Sun, 27 May 2007 23:51:16 GMT

Ok, so today, I'm messing around with my computer which lead to this actual string of esoteric google searches:

intel st3160827as

ide st3160827as iastor.sys

intel st3160827as raid 82801fr sata

Is fricking mercury in retrograde?

Basically, a merucry retrograde is the astrological equivilant of Murphy's law. Everything technical or communications is supposed to break, or go wrong, or not work out. Just trust that this entry was funny. XD

I'm waking up a bit now.

Mon, 21 May 2007 09:33:30 GMT

This post is going to be a bit odd, since it's four o' clock in the morning, and I've just woken up from deep sleep filled with dreams. You know how sometimes it takes you a bit to adjust to reality after waking up, because your dreams just feel so real? This seems especially true in the middle of the night. In fact, one time I woke up, walked downstairs to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator, and then suddenly realized I was awake, not in a dream.

I really, really love my dreams. They're usually very exciting, overly complicated and tons of fun to recall. Many of them play out like movies, and are as entertaining as watching TV. (maybe better, since there are no commericals. :) )

I've often wondered what the normal rate of dreaming is. Usually, when I talk to people they mention one, maybe two dreams. Myself? On average, I have at least half a dozen different dreams that I can recall. For a couple days, I kept a dream journal, but I kind of gave up because it took from an hour to an hour and a half to write everything down! Which is a shame, because when I put things into writing, I had insights into the metaphors for events and thoughts in my real life. Things that seemed like nonsense suddenly were totally clear.

In the end, I think I've decided just to meditate (i.e. concentrating on one thing while just letting the thoughts flow) on the dreams for about 10 minutes or so directly after I wake up. This takes less time, and it pretty fun, because it's almost like reliving the dream. Once I get started, I can suddenly recall tons of different dreams I had. It's kind of like remembering a TV show you watched years ago.

So, just what are dreams? That's something I've been musing over for a while now. Based on my experiences, I've come to the conclusion, that dreams are a lot of things: they are random neurological imulses, as well as a way for your mind to sort out anbd help heal all of the mental and emotional information you receive. On a note that's quickly taking this post into Crazytown, I also very strongly believe that dreams are a link to the spiritual realms beyond the physical. Many, many of the spiritual experiences I've had (ghosts, visions etc.) have been inside my dreams. Not all of them have been good, however.

Which reminds me. Amusingly, in one of the dreams I've had tonight, a cake tin that we have in our house suddenly became posessed by an evil spirit. I think...we were using it because it would instantly cure any kind of common disease, like the flu or whatever.* However, at the same time, bad things started happening in our house, and we couldn't figure out why. Then my sister figured that the bad things seemed to happen when we used it. (for some reason, it could also turn you into a cat, too.) I remember being like "oh no, not the cake tin! :("

lol, now that I think about it, it could be my subconcious's way of telling me, "yes, if you cheat on your diet, you will feel like crap." Which is extremely relevant to what has been happening lately.

*This is why I love dreams. A Evil Cake Tin that masquerades itself by curing diseases. Then, when you're least expecting it...bam! Suddenly your house is infested with evil! Who would have suspected it? It seemed like such a sweet cake tin!

Wed, 16 May 2007 22:13:22 GMT

Dear Elder Scrolls: Oblivion:

I hate you.

I played you for close to 50 hours, only to have you corrupt my save game, my backup save game, and my backup-backup save game.

I'm uninstalling you, and putting you on the Game Trading Zone.

Guess what I'm going to play instead of you? I'm going to play 10 year old dating sims. I'm going to play jRPG's. I'm going to play terrible SNES platformers. I hope that hurts your pride. :p

Stupid Pollen cough

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 01:44:09 GMT

I've come down with a really bad sinus infection. I've been bedridden since yesterday morning. Everybody else in my house, except my dad, seems to have it to. :( Sis has been sick since Thursday. :( :( :(

Ugh, getting sick is so annoying, especially when you have things to do. It's the last week of class, so a lot of final projects are due.

Um, on another note I must be officially 10 years old. Because I just ordered the new Pokemon game, and I am SO immensly happy with it. I've liked the Pokemon games since, like, I was 10 years old. I keep playing it and being like "OMGSOCUTE SOCUTE". I feel kind of childish, but....hey, it's fun. :) One thing that annoys me, though, is that it goes sooooo slow. I'm used to playing on emulators (yeah, yeah, I'm a dirty pirate. But I DID buy Pokemon, um...Red. Like, 10 years ago. And I was going to buy Pokemon Emerald, but they were sold out that day. :P), and turn it up to 300% speed. The text goes way too slow. Even with the opening battle animations, it still takes forever.

I've also discovered that Deviantart is the most awesome place for fanart of obscure series no one has heard of. <3 <3 <3

On another random note, I'm down to 190 lbs now. Yay!

Well, I can't say I didn't have an idea this might happen...

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 11:52:22 GMT

Some real life bills came up. Bad ones. The car broke down, the computer broke down, and it was all expensive. T_T

So as a result of my new financial situation, I have to sell Samantha (the Sharmin I just got). I could really use the money; and besides, dolls have a way of attracting the want of spending more money on things. Specifically, I'm referring to the hunt for the Elusive Perfect Eyes and Wig. It costs a lot of money to buy and resell the things that don't suit a doll. >.>

I'm not hurting for money now, it's not that bad. But I know that if I keep Samantha, I'll be enticed to spend money I don't have. Plus, if I sell her, it will offset the cost of one of my bills.

So, yeah, it sucks. She has a beautiful body mold, and we spent forever getting her fixed up (Windsor and Newton Brush cleaner, FTW.), but...well, I knew when I bought her that if expenses came up, I'd have to sell her. Thankfully, I haven't become super-attached to her. Just attached.

I'm amused...

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 21:39:03 GMT

Lately, I've decided to read up on a few new age books. You know, astrology, past life regressions, talking to ghosts,that kind of thing. I've had...strange experiences...in my life that don't quite fit, and I'm interested in what other people have to say. Plus, I find the subject fascinating.

I'm cautious when I read, I know how dangerous latching on to something spiritual that sounds good can be. I try to read with a cautious, yet open mind.

Today, I was looking at the website for one of the books I read, and was immensly amused at one of the positive blurbs for the book:
I've been able to see myself in a paralell universe and my own future!

Unfortunately, when I read the book, I wasn't able to see myself in a paralell universe OR my own future. XD

On Sharmin.

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 00:59:10 GMT

I have a little bit more to report on my Sharmin.

Her coating is coming off, slowly but surely. The most effective method seems to be to put her in boiled water (!!!!) and then scrub her with her with baking soda and a toothbrush. I wouldn't have tried boiling water on my own, but sis wanted to try it, and nothing else was working. XD

Her head is off for a faceup now. So far, she's looking lovely. I think I'm planning to have a red wig and a white wig for her. No idea what color eyes yet. I think I'm going to buy some cheap acryllics in different colors to see what looks good on her. (hellooooo artistique)

Oh! And she has a name now. Finally. Her name is Samantha. I think it absolutely suits her and the character I have in mind. Her middle name is Lumina, not that I think I'll ever use it; it's kind of fun to give her a middle name. Much to my amusement, my sister absolutely abhors the name Lumina.